I hate my mother............?

Mothers can be very difficult. I'm sorry about your situation. You have to try to love her because she is in fact your mother, and she did in fact provide for you. However, you do not have to live under her ridicule and psychological/emotional abuse anymore - it sounds to me like your grown up now - correct? I understand the living situation is sometimes impossible to deal with, but find something to do and ... this sounds awful, I know, but I have similar issues ... You have to keep emotional separation. You must learn to interact with your mother just like you would if she were say your best friend's mom or mother-in-law. You would take her insults gracefully and laugh it off later, right? You would also avoid unnecessary, lengthy conversations and absolutely no tea parties! (figure of speech) Be graceful for your own sanity and get out as soon as you can. Don't go back. It's not healthy. But you do have to keep good relations, again, for your own sanity. If you're any sort of a good person, you will feel guilty if you try to cut her out of your life ever so that is not an option. Just hang in there and remember "emotional separation."